Lost love! Which is now Gained

I didn't even know, what i have lost what i have gain,

but when i found myself alone in rain.

I always had in heart my lost love's pain..!

Only tears from my eyes roll down 

to my cheeks again n again,

Even the running water washed 

tears from my face,

but still her memories in my eyes remain.

Suddenly silhouette of her came to me,

offer to dance with me in that rain.

We danced and she whispered in my ears-

"dun cry my love ,

I am always with you flowing in your vein....

Just remember me always with my good memories

because rest of all r insane, and

look forward in your life 4 love's another train.." !!

Suddenly she left me alone in rain,

but now I was having seeds of hope in my vein.

In that beautiful rain, my lost love was with me.

and that's what i had gained..!!

From that day I started looking for new up coming train....!!!!!

Christmas Gift

Bate is sitting on the cozy couch, with utter guilt on his handsome face, holding a coffee mug in his both hands. It’s Christmas Eve outside. While in his empty home; he is just sitting in front of little charcoal fireplace, staring in the hearth of burning woods and missing his beloved, whom he has lost in last summer’s. 

They departed with each other without uttering a word and this pinches him a lot. He can still feel the faded smell of his love on this couch and he can still hear her giggles around him.

Besides lying brown diary of his Love, written Anna on it, have a dead rose bookmarked in it. When he looks at diary, his eyes get fills with tears; they slowly rolled down his cheeks to touch his lips. His heart is very heavy. He is feeling lump in his throat. He puts coffee-mug on the right side of his couch on a small rounded table and stands up. He walks to the door and as soon as he peeps out from the window, he founds that its snow falling outside that to on Christmas Eve .

Bate feels nostalgic when he remembers Anna saying- “Snowfall on Christmas is my favorite moment, I have always wished to dance with the person who loves me during Christmas' snowfall.” With this thought he steps outside in the snowfall with his swimming eyes. 

He is feeling so incomplete without her that he doesn't want to move forward in his life, he wishes to get back old days with Anna. 

Snow is getting stirred on his clothes, his lips turning blue. 

Suddenly, he sees silhouette of Anna in the dark. She is stepping forward towards him. He is not even able to say a single word. He is just staring her by cleaning tears from eyes. She asks him to dance with her, he holds her hands and put his head on her shoulder and dance and talks with her for whole twilight, but she doesn't say a single word. She listened him patiently as always she does.

Then, she whispers in his ears- “My love it’s time to depart now, you promise me that you will not cry for me and let me go happily in the another world of fairies from where I will send you another fairy to look after you so that you will move forward in your life.” Then she gets dispersed in the darkness. He is still standing there with an empty expression on his face.

Sun rises, he is very happy because he has got in this winters what he had lost in summers. Because after her sudden departure he always wished for few memorable moments with her, so that he can life his rest of his life in those moments and memories only. And he was sure that it was not a dream, she really did come to celebrate last Christmas with him because its proof was the Alive rose in the diary !! 

Now he is ready to life his life, and also ready to look forward his new upcoming train of Love. ! :) 

Fikra

Aane wala pal jaane kitne naye lamhe laayega

par purana waqt kabhi na laut ke aayega..

Kuch din jab beetenge yun hi,

tumharana muskurana yaad aayega.

Puraane hi din nahin bhul paate hm toh,

phir kal subah aj ka zamaana yaad ayega..

Thandi bheeni subah ki chehakti subah me tumse baat hui h,

raat ki khamoshi aate aate yeh meetha waqt guzar jaayega..

aur phir tumhara paas aana yaad aayega,

Phir agali subah hum dhundenge tumhe.

din toh khair samjhate hue khud ko nikal jaayega,

per sham hote hi muskurahat me ek khaalipan bhar jaayega,

vo aus ki bundon me aansuon ka mil jaana,

aur phir tumhara jhat se bidak jaana yaad aayega.

Itna karta hai man abhi se hi tumhe dekhne ko,

jaane waqt parson kya manzar dikhayega,

jab mera tumse ladna bhi mujhe yaad aayega.

Kaise guzrenge vo pal jab tumhara mujhe sataana ,

parso raat ke hote hi phir se sataayega..

EMOTIONS

My own smile stuck me, be fools me every time !!!

It laughs at me and asks me what I have achieved yet, by smiling at everyone??

No one is there to understand my tears, and my emotions are still unlearned..!!

I came so far in life's journey still I have no one around my neck to be curled.
It took too long to understand me in the life's long run,

that even your seemingly small wishes can let someone to                                                              break your heart..!!

Dun want everyone to read my eyes,

but at least the one for whom I dare to even kill someone,

should not miss communicate my tears and

should at least give a try to know me from inside..!!

I dun want happiness to be around me always..

But I want to go with him on a blissful ride..!!

Where he'll understand the pain of my heart and,

will not leave me alone, while always sit by my side..!!

Who'll not only kiss my wishes but also he will be my guide..!!

Sometime my heart starts sinking into hell, 

I want to catch it, hug it.. 
and gift it to someone very b'ful of my life,

Who will not bother to change its softness and,will take care of it,
also won’t ask me at least someday to let me my emotions hide..!!

Who can dare to forget the world just for the sake of my smile..!!Who will understand some day the actual way to get my smile..!!

Who'll someday dun fight for not being perfect for me, but at least give a single try..     !!!!!

Someday YOU feel

Lying in her bed, this was the fourth time she is glancing at the clock, but still it is showing 12.30 only. Its seeming like clock is on hold, time is freeze, and now she is even tired of taking turns on her cozy bed. 

Today her pink softy pillow is also not comforting her at all. She was never been like this before, something was wrong in her mind. Her stomach was craving for someone.Although, she knew what is there in her heart. But still she was ignoring and trying to be in the real world only. 

She never used to come out from her fantasies though, but someone’s sudden absence had made her to go for self realization, that is why she solely wants to gulp the bitter realities of her real world. But today it was not so easy for her to face everything. And she is still ignoring whatever is in her mind, and she is not even paying any hide on the wall painting of footsteps.

She stood up and put her feet into sleepers lying under bed, and took a walk into her apartment. Suddenly felt happy by realizing that new music system she wants and how can she forget a Goa trip is also she want to manage for this month. So all she has to do is hard work. Aah! Sigh of relief. She loved the ease of accepting the reality.And she moved towards her room, bent for water jug lying on the table, glanced at wall painting. While gulping sips of water, flashbacks started in her mind.She kept the glass down and redid her bed. 

As the night progressed she lay numb with her head rested on pillow, her hands she can feel were so loose, and her heart was empty with no left insane jokes in her mind, which she used to share with. She is still asleep with thoughts in her mind, and she is missing her late night Maggie talks over an explanatory note- ‘this is the best thing in the world I can cook for you my love’!!
She lay quite as ever, His thoughts were soothing her. She is feeling nostalgic with sound of giggles and shouts, which used to happen during pillow fight. She wants to ask her love today that how he is living on earth without his most important thing in the world, ME!!! Precisely, when she is feeling his presence by her side. But she was not able to see him anymore. And a sudden jump from reality again made her to look around her for her Love, who left her alone in this room few months back in a car accident.

The clock struck 7 am. She wake up and caught tears in her eyes. And started to look for Ankush’s sleepers, lying under bed, which use to make her feel nearer to him. Somewhere in her mind she had a feeling that it was her Love only who made her to sleep last night, now she don’t want to tease him anymore, so she started getting ready for her office with a smirking smile on her face after wishing Ankush a Happy Birthday!